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[18 May 2006|08:58pm] |
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I miss playing soccer football.
I miss getting hurt and dirty.
I miss practicing for the perfect juggle.
I miss the frustrations after a bad game and/or losing.
...not to mention during practice, too.
I miss wearing my spikes.
I miss putting on my jersey.
I miss fixing my socks and shin guards.
I miss practice.
I miss the field.
I miss shouting when I have to.
...and getting shouted at.
I miss getting tired.
I miss practicing shots at the goal.
I miss TRYING to be goalie.
I miss being part of a team.
I miss defending on the right.
I miss starting.
I miss stressing on one of the things I love the most. I miss portrating my passion. My football skills have deteriorated. Along with my agility and competitiveness. I WANT IT BACK. I want it all back. I need a football tutor. I want a well-deserved Ateneo jersey with my name on it.
All I need is the right motivation.
...and it isn't myself this time.
Besides, I'm getting humongous. But that's not the point. Hahah :)
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| forever |
[14 Apr 2006|01:02pm] |
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"never say forever, cause forever isn't real. forever's what you think and forever's what you feel. so if you say forever, please promise that you'll try. never say forever cause forever makes you cry."
-anonymous
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| snagged off arah's multiply |
[15 Oct 2005|10:56am] |
More often than not we find it so hard to let go of the things we love the most. It just seems to be one of the hardest actions we have to do when things don't go well. Though deep inside you, you can't bear to do such thing, it is just so sad and painful how much you have to take the pain. The situation calls for it, there's nothing else you can do. You may go crazy, and your heart may scream but still, nothing goes back to you. Reality shuts your mind and you wake up from a dream that you thought would eternally bring fulfillment to you. Why is it that good things never last? At one point in time, you'd experience something so magical, something so surreal but before you know it, all the sparks disappear. How come it happens so fast?.. so abrupt that you wouldn't even notice it coming. There are times when you thought you're ready but it turns out that you're really not and when the truth hits you, you can't help but break down and cry..sometimes, you even begin to do things that is out of your league. You become mistaken by your own stupid judgments. Eventhough you want to patch things up, you just cant seem to do it. Things become so hard to do. They just don't seem to be going your way until you feel empty handed in a dark, cold place.
As the truth sinks in, you just come to the realization that you really can't hold on anymore. The feelings you had, and still have needs to be let go of and leave it all behind. Reality tells you now that everything belongs to the past and you have to forget it. Even if it's just the hardest thing to do for you, you just have to do it. Let go and just never hold on to the feeling you once had inside. You have to wake up and accept what is really happening. Though it's difficult you have to move on. Just like what they say, ' Don't look for your future in your past.' Nothing will happen, you'll just go in circles. Move forward and do something because dwelling on your past will hurt you more.
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| shalalalala. |
[15 May 2005|09:01am] |
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breakin my back just to know your name |
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I'm great, never better. =)
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